Short, but sweet

a delightful surprise. definitely the highlight of my week. i love you :)

this is what u call the horror when your boyfriend handles ur make up kit. hahaha

sometimes i just feel like the distance is driving me insane. screw that, most of the time that is. insane to the point that i overthink and get absolutely sensitive about everything when actually, there is nothing much to be bothered about. 

I can't judge much and voice out the pros and cons of going through a long distance relationship at the moment bcz it hasn't been more than half a year of being apart so the experience isn't fully there yet but I am coping. Chewah hahaha oh gelinya tgk my sentences, so skema. though there are times when I just demand for all the attention that I think I deserve  and sulk when I receive less than I expected (being the girly girl that I am) and then only to wake up to feeling silly for getting upset over petty little things.

However, to have such a wonderful and patient boyfriend is such a blessing. U knw he deserves all the praises u can give when he is still there with his best behaviour after countless of annoying tantrums and repetitive complaints. WHAT IS IT THAT I DO TO DESERVE SOMEONE SO...SO.......ANNOYINGLY WONDERFUL LIKE YOU?!!!! beheh. kidding.  (ok u can puke now if any of those words make u cringe).

it seems like almost my whole blog is dedicated to my boyfriend and my boyfriend only. well,these posts might come in handy in case one day i decide to let my boyfriend suffer from tantrums of mine and serving him the silent treatment with a free service of cold shoulder :3 please reread all posts to know that everything is actually okay, i am just overwhelmed by hormonal imbalanced and is suffering from temporary emotional disorder. i said just in case, don't panic :p 

I hope he knows that i absolutely admire his whole being and most importantly, that I love him to the moon and back. 

lovely isn't it?

hello viki jr. I miss you :)

My mum just got robbed off of her belongings recently. Days before my mum was robbed, my unfortunate neighbour's house got broken into. Hours ago, I watched a video about a lady in Semenanjung that got her handbag snatched away and she was lying injured in the middle of the road but sadly, not even one passerby's came to her aid. As a result, the lady suffered from head injuries and was pronounced dead. Hours later, I received a news about a guy that received a headshot at a coffee shop (read here) quite near my housing area earlier this morning.

when did everyone get so so cruel? and when did Kuching start to get so dangerous? Why do people start to carry guns around in Kuching and just shoot someone having breakfast at the head? and you know what is sad and scary at the same time? How ignorant people can be. Sigh. I just don't know anymore.

this is too intense. i am making myself crazy. rrrrrr. do they sell him in any of the supermarkets in Kuching?!

running manions, you'd understand my feelings

MUCH LOVE FOR HARORO!! this is so cute. and stupid. hahah

and I miss you Love. sigh.

Cheers to all the parents that have always been providing no matter how much the kids are taking them for granted sometimes. God bless.

Good Lord

Live in Kuching :)

this my people, is Sungha Jung.

 talented, no?

I went for his free concert which was held at the Kuching airport and believe me, everything was major chaotic. Why wouldn't it be? It was free and he is an international artiste, of course everybody would go crazy!

so let me describe how everything went.

supposedly, his concert was scheduled to start at two. but of course, little Sungha was busy being fashionably late. well actually, just 10 to 15 minutes late (yes,I kept tract of time) everybody was lining up outside the airport (picture above), waiting to welcome him to Kuching (not really. most of us were busy with our camera, waiting and struggling for a good spot in order to take a good picture of him when he arrives)

and suddenly, people were screaming. that's it. this is it. the time has come. "Sungha Jung is going to walk past me slowly" I whispered to myself (chewah) well, I was kinda hoping for him to pass by but what a disappointment.as I mentioned before, he was busy being fashionably late. he showed up by making his grand entrance with a bike (picture above. i know, what a bad picture. sungha wasn't even captured -.-) everybody went AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAA SUNGHA SUNGHA SARANGHAE etc and all I said to deidrie was GET A GOOD PICTURE GET A PICTURE!! USE YOUR PHONE!! hahaha k.

everybody tailgated the bike into the airport. I was being pulled by Deidrie and we struggled our way in when suddenly, they played Wondergirls "nobody" and tadaa! a flash mob. with sungha. dancing along. I was so excited (like a devoted fangirl) we squeezed through the crowd and still got a bad view. so we decided to change location and moved to the other side of the airport. after many squeezing and cursing, we were right in front and finally got a good view of him. took a few of disappointing pictures that made me realised I wasn't born to be a photographer so I made my choice and gave up on my talentless self. That is when your friend comes in handy. Deidrie did all of the dirty job. Therefore, thank you, Det. Your photography service was very much appreciated.

there is one thing I do not understand though. While Sungha was performing, the bouncers were yelling loudly at us to take few steps back because they thought we were too close to him. Well, we have been standing in that position at the exact same spot for quite a while with our almost best behaviours but okay, maybe we were a little close but he was performing excuse you and you just had to yell that loud? I was a little embarrassed by this act and Sungha, if you're reading, I'm sorry your performance was interrupted by the screaming bouncer. (dream on nas, dream on)

Deidrie couldn't take the heat so she left for Starbucks. There I was all alone in the big crowd. I must say I was a little terrified since they all went crazy at the sight of sungha and they were also a little smelly. hehehe. After performing a number of songs, Sungha stopped and neared his fans. The initial plan was, he's supposed to pick 50 fans of his choice for a meet and greet session. 

Believe me, there is nothing to be excited about what is going to happen next. 

Sungha actually came to my section first and there I was, imagining all the great things that I hope is going to happen to me. But no. What happened felt like God's survival skill test to me. When he got close to the place where I stood, everybody pushed, pulled, screamed for his attention (which means screaming directly into my ears also) and fight for the front spot. As a small sized lady, I was really struggling to keep my balance, to keep my hair in place (i actually turned my head around to some stranger and yelled for ruining my braided hair. yes, I am that vain), to make sure my bag wasn't at risk of being snatched and also to make sure I didn't hurt anybody. I kept saying sorry to the people beside me and thankfully they were very understanding (since they were going through the same thing) Everyone wanted to be picked so the people behind went extra violent by pushing us more to the front and the bouncers went even more violent by pushing us further back. It was like a tug of war and all I did was just stood there following the crowds' rhythm and silently hoping for this madness to be over. Terrified level? Definitely at its maximum level.

After picking all of the 50 lucky fans (I wasn't picked boohoo) everyone sighed as a sign of disappointment. In the midst of desperation, Joanne found me and my heart brightened. I finally saw the tunnel to escape (chewah) I made my way out and gasp for air. Phew. There wasn't a generous amount of air when you're in a large crowd I tell you. And then finally, little Sungha left. 

Oh and did I mention what a good looking lad he is? Everything about him was just super hot. The way his fingers work the guitar. When he wiped his face with the tissue or gulp down a bottle of water. Fuh. Considering the age difference, I am not ashame to admit that I am a pedophile. :3

All in all, it was great catching him performing live. Like all of his youtube videos, he performed like a boss! Despite the chaos, I enjoyed everything.

here's a short video of him performing the same song (as video above)

did I bore you with my very long post? Oh too bad.

Lets forgive

words that escape you can spread like a wildfire. true story.

How many of you have said something about one person and sooner or later, you realised that one person knew about what you said and is giving you the cold shoulder? Or have you ever found out that a secret you once gave away to someone is leaked to the public and everyone is giving you that weird stare?

Of course, a normal person would start pointing fingers about how nobody can keep certain things as a private and confidential matter. Well, truth is, what you say is what you are responsible of. It is okay if you trust someone and though it is hurtful, it is okay when someone breaks your trust. It actually is the nature of the earth. Everybody does the same thing. I know I do too. In denial?

Okay let us make this simple. Have we ever come across anyone that keeps us agitated and annoyed? Even the presence of their being makes you uneasy and all that rush to mind are the bad qualities that one person possesses (eventhough the number of rights that has been done is countless) So what do we do? We trash them. Trash and just keep trashing about them among our clan. Without us knowing it, our clans trash about that person with their other clans and the list goes on and on. One unfateful day, the words landed in the wrong hands and BAM! You're in trouble. I know everyone does this and usually, we get all defensive and start to bring others down with us (for we do not want to be blamed alone). Then we start making an invisible list inside our heads on who we can and cannot trust. Too bad sweetie, it's not an easy task to pin point and identify them.

And sometimes, people talk about you as a conversation starter and without them realising it, they are actually providing unnecessary information about you to others. We have to admit, we do this too sometimes. Okay now now who am I to tell you what to do. I have to admit that I do this sometimes. I know I know -.-

See. the thing is, you cannot make a list on who you can share secrets with. Nobody can be trusted (no offense to everyone) and not even yourself (no offense to myself). You just have to be careful with what you want to expose when sharing something to someone. Just make sure that once you have said something, you are not afraid of being judged when it is out in the open because what you say is your responsibility and if you refuse to be responsible, then might as well not say anything, no?

Just be forgiving when we feel like we have been wronged. We all make mistakes, don't we? I don't think anyone should be labelled as backstabbers. I would like to believe that they just haven't completely bloomed yet and is still adjusting themselves with life. Come on. As cliche as it sounds, nobody is perfect and we all make mistakes. I know when I do, all I want people to know is that it wasn't done on purpose and how I wish I hadn't done it/knew better. Goes the same to everyone else, right? So let's forgive and make room for chances. Give and take people!  Okay I know this is a long post and I have more things to say but as this gets longer, i get lazier. So that's it. This is just based on what I have been going through all the while I was growing up. Cheers to those who keeps on trying to better! May God be with us all always. Amen.

I haven't been properly updating about myself now, have I? 

Hello there, I am currently stressing over my finance assignment. I know this assignment is not a big deal (we're only at the introduction part) but when you have a tremendous amount of information that you found on google, it will be a problem to pick what is important (everything looks important to me) and make my own words up. Copy pasting the data would mean another thing, plagiarizing. And apparently, my lecturer made it very clear that he believes in love at 1st sight (liking students that did not skip his very 1st lecture) and also he judges a book by its cover (meaning to say if I were to take the easy way out with this assignments, he is going to..well..dislike me for my lack of effort) I'm not saying that I can't do this, I'm just tired of looking at all of the infos for the past 3 hrs and I am going to give my poor brain and eyes (my vision is deteriorating) a generous amount of break :3 now now isn't that fair?

and...i am very interested in telling everyone that this semester, i am going to fight hard for 7 subjects. Almost everyone has been telling me (or nodding everytime I tell them I am taking 7 subjects but I know behind those eyes they are shaking their heads sideways) that it is impossible to cramp everything in one semester. Honestly, I am very, very afraid of what people say might be true BUT what others say should not affect me mentally right? since this is my final sem (amen to that Big G!) I hope that I do whatever it takes to finally graduate. I CANNOT LIVE WITH ANOTHER SEMESTER OF ACCOUNTS or else I promise you I am going to end up a depressed lady who will turn crazy and live on a tree somewhere in Bako or a cave. I may cry, I may stress but I shall digress! Everyone who is reading this, do pray for my success okay....? k? k? k? k? thank youuuuuuuuuu :*

I'm so tired

and i wish i was the moon, tonight.

Are you sad?

this video was uploaded a few months ago and you may have watched it but yeah i just watched it....i know i know...slowpoke.

so, are you sad? in need of an entertainment to put a smile on your face? (i know i smiled watching)

here, watch this!

not funny? too bad.

Cheers, Victor Jr

to the moon and back

"WAKE UP!! WHY KJHSFLAIUHEALITTLE MAKE UP!!"
i always thought i was the only one singing it like this. until my friends and I sing this song together then i get to find out. and now its on the internet, the whole world (I think) actually sings it like this. hahahaha ok.

to have so much things to say, but you just bottle it all up in your head. thinking it'll be better off unsaid and leaving you to wonder all of the 'what ifs' if you actually say your thoughts out loud

OR

risk yourself from offending others (depending on what goes out of your mouth) and being judged by saying exactly what you think?


which one? put yourself over others first or others over yourself? >:D

lulz

this is what every girl should wear on their first day of menstruating. harharharharharharharhar. I am so hillarious.

while I was bored

ahh. the lights. never in my whole life, i repeat, NEVER would I imagine that my stuffy little room could be converted into a lovely dining area for two, with candles lighted up and tadaa! the Christmas(?) lights to give the room..now how do i phrase this..the perfect ambiance? yes, i shall settle with that. therefore, cheers to my two special friends and of course, the ever wonderful boyfriend for making everything feels magical :)

and therefore! IT IS IMPORTANT TO TAKE PICTURES WITH IT! 

yes, don't you just find it funny how obsessed us girls are with taking pictures of ourselves? :3 my whole point here is (apart from trying to make up excuses saying that I was bored and therefore i took pictures of myself) to show off the hanging lights on my wall. 

now now...

VHAT IS THIS MONSTAR?!

WHO IS VHIS?!

AWWW if it isn't my wittle photographurrr, Miss Angel taking a lovely nap after all the hustle and bustle of our photoshoot session. Yes its true, she did all the the photo taking.

No joke.

Hey

I 

MISS

 YOU

how often do we punish everyone because of the rage we carry?

a reminder to myself

always learn to stand on your own two feet. We can't always depend on people when life really brings you down because when they can't be there for us, we start to feel a sharp pang of disappointment. we start to get carried away and more than soon enough, we start the blame game, so furious over the fact that nobody can be there for us.

it is always nice to have someone to be there for you through good or bad times but not everybody has the time to attend to you. hence, the key here is, always try to be positive. like the wise says it, life always gets better, why fret?

Deppgasm

slurp. Johnny makes me go loco. Aribaaa aribaaa aiyaiyaiyaii :p~ 

but not as much as...*drum rolls*

MY BLOG VISITOR FROM KOTA KINABALU, SABAH!! (kantoi suda)

LOOK AT THAT FINE YOUNG MAN SITTING ON A NEW SEAT MMM MMM YOU SO FINE YOU SO COOKIN I JUST WANA EAT YOU UP. now tell me, who is Johnny Depp again? 

I puji2 you like this, you better come to Kch fast! Love you Love you :D

very much

beautiful

look! Miranda Kerr is in my favourite colour! Let us all puke rainbows and unicorns now. I love this lady right here. She is just so sexy so cute with the little dimples over there so pretty so stunning oh so everything!!!! and even better, I know this may be old but I just found a tumblr site dedicated to her only! I so excitit!!!

click click here to bask in her beauty! http://fuckyeahmirandakerr.tumblr.com/

argggghhhh the beauty.......................

one of my wildest dreams is to get so filthy rich that i have to give some away to people (depending on their kinds) since i have too much that i can't think of what to do with them anymore. is it a taboo to even talk about it? people always say that when you want something so bad, its best if you don't put on too much hopes and expectations on it. even better, don't even think about talking about it. but oh well, in this case, i am just sharing. hoping a little bit, but not too much. hey, a girl can dream alright!

hello hello

it has been a while since i last blogged and i need everyone to know that i have an amazing family, the best of the best friends in the world and last but not least, a wonderful and lovely boyfriend :)

21st birthday present okay

oh my gasm

sorry victor jr but there's just something about guys licking their lips. SO SEXY I COULD CRYYY :3