Dear me,

Why do I like to make myself feel down again? I mean, look around me. I have all these beautiful people that actually cares and I also have a loving dog that gets excited at the sight of me.

So why do I like to make myself feel depress and force myself to feel empty? Seriously, there is no reason why I should feel that way and the only reason anyone don't understand what I am going through is because I like to  make things complicated with myself. I HAVE TO STOP BEING A GIRL AND STOP BEING SO DRAMATIC SOMETIMES.

It is actually not complicated and I really need to stop being so bipolar before it becomes the death of me -.-

I have to constantly remind myself that what's behind should be kept behind, what's done is done, what's in the past stays there and I have to stop all of this unnecessary abusive thoughts -.- I HAVE TO REMEMBER TO SHOOT AND KILL EACH OF MY INNER DEMONS WHENEVER THEY WANT TO MENTAL TORTURE ME.

Just remember whenever I want to post a sad depressing post that has a relation with the past, just stop it okay. SO NOT NECESSARY. Accept everything as it is and welcome whatever there is to welcome. geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz why so difficult. ok. I know this is stupid but I seriously need to give myself a reality check. and slap it hard on my face. ok this is not so slappy but whatever, it will do. hewhewhewhew.

ok ok you just wasted less or more than 5 minutes of your time on reading this post to myself. hewhewhew.